I was surprised to learn that in the United States, the date on which the new year begins is called January. This month is full of celebrations that range from the typical “new job, new relationship, new home” to the more unusual and exotic “birthday.
January 24 is a day that is often associated with a new beginning and renewed vigor for the year. Some people also celebrate it as the day when they “treat” the person they love to an unexpected trip. But for others, this date is associated with the death of someone close to them. In fact, on this day, someone you love dies. This is a day when we should all look toward the future with hope and faith.
On this date, people die. A lot. And those deaths are usually the result of something that happened in the past that has the power to impact present events. For example, if you’re a parent, a child dies on the 24th. An adult dies on the 24th. A person who is married dies on the 24th. And so on.
This date is also a reminder that we shouldn’t be so quick to believe that our lives are going to be perfect. But as much as we try to convince ourselves, we still sometimes fail. For example, there was a time when I believed that the death of my father on the 24th would mean the beginning of my own death. But now I know that the death of my father meant that I would be on the 24th of every month.
I can’t say that I’m going to be a very good person on the 24th but I can say that I am going to be an extremely good person on the 24th. The date on which we die is a part of our lives that we choose to remember very consciously. It’s not something that is going to be something we are going to forget, even though sometimes we forget it.
In my life I have used the word “death” to describe how I have always known it. And when I have seen a death ring on my face it has taken on a life of its own. The fact that I have the idea “I am going to die” is what makes death seem so much more real. It is a sign of how much my life is going to be lived by someone else.
It’s the day you turn 18, and you take your first step toward mortality. I don’t know about you, but what would I be doing if I had the choice to turn 18? I would be getting married, buying a house, doing a bunch of other stuff that I have been avoiding for years. That’s not an option for me because I have a deep-seated fear of death, and that fear is what makes me want to live.
There’s nothing you can do about it. But if you want to live, you have to face it. If you want the world to change, you have to put up or shut up. If you want to survive, you have to face the fact that you are going to die. Thats how it works. It just is.
Deathloop is a game about a guy who starts off on a lonely island far from civilization. I think that we (most of all the gamers in this room) should be the ones to face death. We should be the ones who face that fear. We should be the ones who refuse to put up with the bullshit that keeps us from doing what we should be doing. Instead, we pretend like it’s nothing.
Deathloop is a survival game. We shouldn’t be pretending like it’s anything. That’s how we die. We don’t want to believe that it can’t be real. We don’t want to believe that we are not going to die. That’s how we survive.